Tanghaling tapat ngunit humahagupit ang ulan
Nagbibigay alalahanin sa mga bagay na gagawin
Dahil katulad ng madalas na nangyayari
Sa pagbuhos ng ulan, nababalam ang marami .
Ika-apat ng hapon nang kami ay makaalis
Tumila na ang ulan pero oras naman ng uwian
Siksikan, tulakan, alitan ang matutunghayan
Saan man sa mga pampublikong sasakyan.
Huling araw ngayon ng Setyembre
Huling araw rin sana ng pag-ulan
Huling araw rin sana ng pagkabalam
Ng takbo ng buhay at ng mga sasakyan.
Nagpasalin-salin sa tatlong sasakyan
Kasama ako, tatlo kaming tinahak ang daan
Panahon na naman ng hatiran
Pagkikita'y sa katapusan na naman ng buwan.
Kung puwede lang sana na wala na ang sunduan
Lalo naman sanang puwedeng wala na ang hatiran
Upang hindi na mag-aalala sakaling umulan man
At magpasalin-salin sa mga sasakyan.
Ngunit gaya ng ulan na biglang bumubuhos
Unos ng buhay minsan ay padalus-dalos
Mararamdaman na lamang na ikaw ay basa
At ang baha ay tumataas, rumaragasa.
Kung maaari lang sana ay huwag munang makita
Upang sakit ng damdamin huwag manariwa
Subalit anong magagawa kung may nagdudugtong
Mga batang ihahatid at susunduin sa istasyon.
Inalok ng kape at tinapay nang dumating.
Kahit ayaw galawin ay napilitan man din.
Mga mata ng ibang tao ay nakatingin.
Kahit paano ayaw na ikaw ay pahiyain.
Sunud-sunod ang subo at panay-panay ang lagok
Sa tinapay at kape na ang lasa'y kagyat na nalimot
Dahil mas mapait pa sa kape at matabang pa sa tinapay
Ang sakit na idinulot ng ginawa mo sa aking buhay.
Matapos kumain, muling inalok ng panibago
Tama nang minsan, gaya ng minsan akong niloko.
Bagama't nag-aalangan ang loob ay nilakasan
Tumayo na at nagpaalam, handa nang lumisan,
Matapos magpaalam sa mga hinahatid at sinusundo
Lumakad na ako papalabas ng pinto
Inihatid na animo'y nandoon pa ang pagsuyo
O baka naman iwas lamang sa sasabihin ng tao.
Walang lingun-lingon ako ay lumakad
Matapos ang matipid na paalam at paiwas na tinginan
Pinilit ituwid ang lakad ng nanghihinang katawan
Habang nagmamadali na makarating sa sakayan,
Pag liko sa kanto ang luha ay pumatak
Tumila na ang ulan ngunit hindi ang pag-iyak
Huling araw na nga Setyembre, marahil ulan ay huli na rin.
Ngunit ang sakit ng damdamin ay nadarama pa rin.
Kung kailan matatapos ang pag-iyak ay di alam
Nanalangin na sana ay may mapagdiskitahan
Upang bigong damdamin sa lungkot ay mapigilan
At sumikat na ang araw pagkatapos ng ulan.
Lunes, Setyembre 30, 2013
Lunes, Setyembre 16, 2013
MY HUSBAND'S LOVER'S LOVER
Last Sunday, aking inamin at ikinumpisal sa mga miyembro during my sermon na ako ay masugid na tagasubaybay ng mapangahas na teleserye sa GMA na My Husband's Lover(MHL). Being a gay-themed series, I am not sure what would people's judgment on the soap opera and to the people who watch it. I got negative reactions from some of my members on the said teleserye. One time when the youth in the church had an overnight activity over a member's house and the television happened to be tuned on MHL, one of our youth leaders remarked, "Bakit yan?" One Sunday, during lunchtime, the mother of the said youth leader also expressed her dislike on MHL. Those reactions gave me a feeling of keeping my fondness of MHL to myself.
Why do I watch MHL? More than its controversial theme, it is soap opera for everybody. It makes the viewers realize that gayness has something to do with the things we also value like true love, family, friendship, responsibility, forgiveness and others.
It is not an ordinary teleserye were missing baby or mother abound, villains who are more evil than Satan, dream sequence, kidnapping, resurrection of the dead and other plot that insult the intelligence of the viewers.
MHL is a groundbreaking program not just because of its subject but also on the treatment of the subject. Sa teleseryeng ito naturuan ang mga tao na gay can be as normal as other people except that they prefer same sex for a lover. That they can be a successful professionals like Architect, Businessman and Chef at hindi lang isang screaming faggot na parlorista.
The camera angle, thespic prowess of the all the casts, employment of objects as co-actors to highlight the emotions and drama of the teleserye are all commendable. This teleserye make you notice and appreciate the drinking glass, the lady bag, the cellphone, the elevator, the shoes and the condominium unit as part of the acting ensembles.
In this teleserye, every actor shift from being a protagonist and an antagonist from time to time. There are no "Bella Flores" and "Eddie Garcia" type of villain here.
If there is plenty in MHL, it is the quotable quotes. One can relate to one or two of those lessons. One cannot avoid quoting them themselves.
In short, MHL is REALISTIC, BOLD AND UNPREDICTABLE soap opera. It is about to end and yet, viewers are still guessing how it will be? And based of the sudden and unexpected shift and turn that characterize this teleserye, it can be anybody's guess. That makes it kaabang-abang talaga!
I must say that MHL indeed succeeds in setting the bar higher in doing soap opera in our country. If other networks can produce another teleserye that will trend even beyond the world, only then they can top the record set by MHL. Since Day 1, the Philippines and the rest of the world are talking about it.
So, why do I have to include MHL in my sermon? It is because I talked about the "predictability in the church" that makes it boring and unattactive.
In the church, we sing the same song for the longest years. We sit on the same pew Sunday after Sunday. We attend the same activities year after year. We hear messages that just repeat what the Bible has already said Sunday after Sunday. We know when we will sit and stand in our mass or service. We hear the same people dominate our Bible Studies and Sunday School. It is always the same faces, places and results in the church.
The church does not set trends because it does not do anything new. People are not excited to come to church because it will have no effect to their lives. The church ended up as "passive listeners" than "active catalyst" of the society.
At para naman, may karamay ako sakaling ako ay i-persecute ng congregation dahil hindi ako nagiging modelo kung ano ang dapat panoorin, isinama ko na rin sa confession ko ang dalawang members na alam kong fan din ng MHL. Hahahahahaha!
At mukhang hindi lang ako ang pastor na mapepersecute dahil I realized na among the pastors, marami rin pala ang mga MY HUSBAND'S LOVER'S LOVERS. While I was attending a mentoring among church workers this afternoon, I overheard one saying, My Husband's Lover sa discussion namin whenever we talk about gay issue. Nang tumunog ang Iphone ng lecturer namin, react agad ang mga pastors na ang tumatawag daw ay si Vincent o kaya si Lally. We all know, that the main cast of MHL uses Iphone for a phone. Kaya identified na ang ring tone na yon sa MHL. Hahahahaha! Di ba obvious na affected ang buong bayan? Natuwa naman ako dahil hindi naman pala ako nag-iisang nanonood. Hindi pala dapat confession ang ginawa ko last Sunday kundi PROMOTION. Hahahahahaha! I became more proud to be a My Husband's Lover's Lover. Hahahahahaha!
I just hope that the popularity of this teleserye even among church workers would translate to the reaching the objective of the production people behind MHL. That of being bold and unpredictable.
Some would like to extend MHL. Some are suggesting how it will end. Me, I don't care although I will miss MHL. It is just enough for me to love a story that does not come everyday.
IF LOVING MY HUSBAND'S LOVER IS A SIN, THEN I AM GUILTY!
Why do I watch MHL? More than its controversial theme, it is soap opera for everybody. It makes the viewers realize that gayness has something to do with the things we also value like true love, family, friendship, responsibility, forgiveness and others.
It is not an ordinary teleserye were missing baby or mother abound, villains who are more evil than Satan, dream sequence, kidnapping, resurrection of the dead and other plot that insult the intelligence of the viewers.
MHL is a groundbreaking program not just because of its subject but also on the treatment of the subject. Sa teleseryeng ito naturuan ang mga tao na gay can be as normal as other people except that they prefer same sex for a lover. That they can be a successful professionals like Architect, Businessman and Chef at hindi lang isang screaming faggot na parlorista.
The camera angle, thespic prowess of the all the casts, employment of objects as co-actors to highlight the emotions and drama of the teleserye are all commendable. This teleserye make you notice and appreciate the drinking glass, the lady bag, the cellphone, the elevator, the shoes and the condominium unit as part of the acting ensembles.
In this teleserye, every actor shift from being a protagonist and an antagonist from time to time. There are no "Bella Flores" and "Eddie Garcia" type of villain here.
If there is plenty in MHL, it is the quotable quotes. One can relate to one or two of those lessons. One cannot avoid quoting them themselves.
In short, MHL is REALISTIC, BOLD AND UNPREDICTABLE soap opera. It is about to end and yet, viewers are still guessing how it will be? And based of the sudden and unexpected shift and turn that characterize this teleserye, it can be anybody's guess. That makes it kaabang-abang talaga!
I must say that MHL indeed succeeds in setting the bar higher in doing soap opera in our country. If other networks can produce another teleserye that will trend even beyond the world, only then they can top the record set by MHL. Since Day 1, the Philippines and the rest of the world are talking about it.
So, why do I have to include MHL in my sermon? It is because I talked about the "predictability in the church" that makes it boring and unattactive.
In the church, we sing the same song for the longest years. We sit on the same pew Sunday after Sunday. We attend the same activities year after year. We hear messages that just repeat what the Bible has already said Sunday after Sunday. We know when we will sit and stand in our mass or service. We hear the same people dominate our Bible Studies and Sunday School. It is always the same faces, places and results in the church.
The church does not set trends because it does not do anything new. People are not excited to come to church because it will have no effect to their lives. The church ended up as "passive listeners" than "active catalyst" of the society.
At para naman, may karamay ako sakaling ako ay i-persecute ng congregation dahil hindi ako nagiging modelo kung ano ang dapat panoorin, isinama ko na rin sa confession ko ang dalawang members na alam kong fan din ng MHL. Hahahahahaha!
At mukhang hindi lang ako ang pastor na mapepersecute dahil I realized na among the pastors, marami rin pala ang mga MY HUSBAND'S LOVER'S LOVERS. While I was attending a mentoring among church workers this afternoon, I overheard one saying, My Husband's Lover sa discussion namin whenever we talk about gay issue. Nang tumunog ang Iphone ng lecturer namin, react agad ang mga pastors na ang tumatawag daw ay si Vincent o kaya si Lally. We all know, that the main cast of MHL uses Iphone for a phone. Kaya identified na ang ring tone na yon sa MHL. Hahahahaha! Di ba obvious na affected ang buong bayan? Natuwa naman ako dahil hindi naman pala ako nag-iisang nanonood. Hindi pala dapat confession ang ginawa ko last Sunday kundi PROMOTION. Hahahahahaha! I became more proud to be a My Husband's Lover's Lover. Hahahahahaha!
I just hope that the popularity of this teleserye even among church workers would translate to the reaching the objective of the production people behind MHL. That of being bold and unpredictable.
Some would like to extend MHL. Some are suggesting how it will end. Me, I don't care although I will miss MHL. It is just enough for me to love a story that does not come everyday.
IF LOVING MY HUSBAND'S LOVER IS A SIN, THEN I AM GUILTY!
Huwebes, Setyembre 12, 2013
ON INTUITION AND DREAMS
While the owner of the cellphone was fast asleep, suddenly a message came in. I am not the type of person who pry on somebody's gadget. But that very moment, I didn't know why I had this urge to read the message. After reading the thread of the conversation, I was no longer sure if it was right for me to read a private's message, a very private one. All I knew that night was, I could hardly slept.
But being a non-believer of what we call "intuition," I tried hard to brush off my "suspicion." I tried to have faith in the person. I retained my full trust. After all, I am not a woman who heavily rely on intution.
We Filipinos called "intuition" as kutob. It is a feeling that something is wrong somewhere.
Another mysterious thing that I am not a fan of is "dream." Lalo na at may kasabihan tayo na kabaligtaran ng katotohanan ang panaginip. Late last year when I kept on dreaming about snakes and other animals biting and attacking me. To dream such dream once can be dismissed right away but having dream about it four times can be alarming and burdensome. I prayed that Joseph the Dreamer would come back to life and help me interpret my dreams.
I search on the internet on the possible interpretation. Some say that it has something to do with betrayal. As to who will betray and how, I did not have any idea. Good thing, the dreaming stopped. So was the burden.
But the reality came. My intuition and dreams were right all along. My suspicion was right. I was indeed betrayed. All I can utter one afternoon was, "Kaya pala, Kayo pala." But it was too late. If only I have followed my intuition and believed in my dreams. I could have done something to prevent something. I chose to trust. We do make bad choices in life. Next time, I will try harder to give intuition and dream a try.
I am not saying that I am now a fan of "intuition" and "dream". It is just that I learned that God can use the two "phenomena" to reveal something to us. As what happened to me, in time, our intuition and dream might turn into a reality.
But being a non-believer of what we call "intuition," I tried hard to brush off my "suspicion." I tried to have faith in the person. I retained my full trust. After all, I am not a woman who heavily rely on intution.
We Filipinos called "intuition" as kutob. It is a feeling that something is wrong somewhere.
Another mysterious thing that I am not a fan of is "dream." Lalo na at may kasabihan tayo na kabaligtaran ng katotohanan ang panaginip. Late last year when I kept on dreaming about snakes and other animals biting and attacking me. To dream such dream once can be dismissed right away but having dream about it four times can be alarming and burdensome. I prayed that Joseph the Dreamer would come back to life and help me interpret my dreams.
I search on the internet on the possible interpretation. Some say that it has something to do with betrayal. As to who will betray and how, I did not have any idea. Good thing, the dreaming stopped. So was the burden.
But the reality came. My intuition and dreams were right all along. My suspicion was right. I was indeed betrayed. All I can utter one afternoon was, "Kaya pala, Kayo pala." But it was too late. If only I have followed my intuition and believed in my dreams. I could have done something to prevent something. I chose to trust. We do make bad choices in life. Next time, I will try harder to give intuition and dream a try.
I am not saying that I am now a fan of "intuition" and "dream". It is just that I learned that God can use the two "phenomena" to reveal something to us. As what happened to me, in time, our intuition and dream might turn into a reality.
Martes, Setyembre 10, 2013
PAANO BA TATAMIS ANG BEER?
Attending a retreat, we were group by twos for a time of sharing. We were asked to share about the people who hurt us the most in the past. I admit, I was not ready to share because I have done telling about it many times in the past. So I let my partner to start and share it all he can.
I listened to him talk about the people who hurt him. The more I listen the more he talked until there was no time left for me to share. But it was ok because that was the best opportunity for him to share his feelings, his true feelings to someone whom he trust.
He said that he has nobody whom he can really pour out his innermost feelings. Most of his friends are just there for random talks and superficial conversations. He could not share it to his wife because he was afraid that he will be judged more than cared for.
We both felt that we need time to talk it over for a longer time in another place. I was ok with that. I like listening to people's story.
In the middle of our discussion, he suddenly asked me, "Umiinom ka ba ng beer?" I was taken aback by his question. But I recovered fast by saying, "I don't drink beer BUT I AM WILLING TO DRINK ONE if it is needed for him to be more open to me.
Like I said, drinking beer is not for me. I hate its bitter taste. Anything bitter, except "Ampalaya" I dislike. I could not even stand bittersweet taste like other beverages available in the market. I have a sweet, sour and salty tooth but not bitter tooth. Hehehehehe!
If our talk happened back when I was still a conservative Christian, with pride I will say to him emphatically that I DON'T DRINK BEER AND I HATE PEOPLE DRINKING IT. MORE SO, IF THOSE PEOPLE ARE CHRISTIANS.
But time changes. So do I. I no longer look at beer drinkers as evil. There are more evil things than drinking beer, puffing a cigarette and other vices. My saying no to drinking beer has something to do with health concerns. Isa pa, hindi ko alam kung paano ako malasing. Who knows? Baka kapag nalasing ako ay katulad ako ng mga tiyuhin ko at kakilala na kapag nalalasing ay nagiging:
Another thing that made me surprised by his question was he's having no issue with a pastor drinking beer. Wala pa lang issue sa kanya kung nainom ng beer ang pastor niya. Well, meron namang ganoong mga members na hindi itinuturing na nakakawala ng kabanalan ang pag-inom ng beer.
Last Sunday, nagkita na naman kami. He reminded me again of the part two of our sharing. Hindi niya pala ito nakakalimutan. I told him I am just a text away.
I am looking forward to having that day; our drinking session. The day I wouldn't mind drinking a beer.
Oo, mapait pa rin ang magiging panlasa ko sa beer. It will always be.
But what will make this beer "sweet" is because through it, I will able to listen to somebody who badly needs someone to talk to. And it can only happen OVER A BOTTLE OF BEER.:-)
Speaking of beer, let me share to you one of my favorite songs. I love the song's concept more than anything else:-)
I listened to him talk about the people who hurt him. The more I listen the more he talked until there was no time left for me to share. But it was ok because that was the best opportunity for him to share his feelings, his true feelings to someone whom he trust.
He said that he has nobody whom he can really pour out his innermost feelings. Most of his friends are just there for random talks and superficial conversations. He could not share it to his wife because he was afraid that he will be judged more than cared for.
We both felt that we need time to talk it over for a longer time in another place. I was ok with that. I like listening to people's story.
In the middle of our discussion, he suddenly asked me, "Umiinom ka ba ng beer?" I was taken aback by his question. But I recovered fast by saying, "I don't drink beer BUT I AM WILLING TO DRINK ONE if it is needed for him to be more open to me.
Like I said, drinking beer is not for me. I hate its bitter taste. Anything bitter, except "Ampalaya" I dislike. I could not even stand bittersweet taste like other beverages available in the market. I have a sweet, sour and salty tooth but not bitter tooth. Hehehehehe!
If our talk happened back when I was still a conservative Christian, with pride I will say to him emphatically that I DON'T DRINK BEER AND I HATE PEOPLE DRINKING IT. MORE SO, IF THOSE PEOPLE ARE CHRISTIANS.
But time changes. So do I. I no longer look at beer drinkers as evil. There are more evil things than drinking beer, puffing a cigarette and other vices. My saying no to drinking beer has something to do with health concerns. Isa pa, hindi ko alam kung paano ako malasing. Who knows? Baka kapag nalasing ako ay katulad ako ng mga tiyuhin ko at kakilala na kapag nalalasing ay nagiging:
- Sobrang "cheesy". Lahat kini-kiss niyayakap at sinasabihan ng "i love you" kahit lalaki.
- Sobrang "drama". Iyak nang iyak at sabi nang sabi ng kanyang sama ng loob.
- Sobrang "war freak". Ang tapang tapang kapag lasing, kahit sino inaaway.
- Sobrang "galante". Namimigay ng pera pero kapag nahimasmasan ay binabawi ito.
- Sobrang "messy". Nagsusuka, natutulog at umiihi kahit saan.
- Sobrang "lasing". Naghuhubo't hubad habang natutulog.
O di ba? Iba-iba ang epekto ng alak sa tao. Iyan ang mga dahilan kung bakit ayaw kong matutong uminom ng beer. Mabuti sana kung katulad ako ng tatay ko na itinutulog lang ang pagkalasing. Eh paano kung isa sa mga nabanggit ko sa taas e mangyari kung malasing ako? Eh kung paano kung lahat ng yun ay gawin ko. Hahahahahahaha!
Another thing that made me surprised by his question was he's having no issue with a pastor drinking beer. Wala pa lang issue sa kanya kung nainom ng beer ang pastor niya. Well, meron namang ganoong mga members na hindi itinuturing na nakakawala ng kabanalan ang pag-inom ng beer.
Last Sunday, nagkita na naman kami. He reminded me again of the part two of our sharing. Hindi niya pala ito nakakalimutan. I told him I am just a text away.
I am looking forward to having that day; our drinking session. The day I wouldn't mind drinking a beer.
Oo, mapait pa rin ang magiging panlasa ko sa beer. It will always be.
But what will make this beer "sweet" is because through it, I will able to listen to somebody who badly needs someone to talk to. And it can only happen OVER A BOTTLE OF BEER.:-)
Speaking of beer, let me share to you one of my favorite songs. I love the song's concept more than anything else:-)
Miyerkules, Setyembre 4, 2013
BETTER LATE THAN NEVER ESPECIALLY IF IT COMES WITH LOTS OF CAKE
We had a simple celebration after our evening worship service. First, I am so grateful to God for giving me another year of life. I turned 43 this year. The week of my birthday was the time when Habagat and Typhoon Maring were devastating the whole of Luzon, submerging places in the cities and the provinces. Our celebration was also a celebration of our lives; on how God spared our lives from the calamity.
My church family did not fail to remember my special day. I am so thankful to those who greeted me in advance, on the day and even belated happy birthday. They turned the celebration into a cake party because of these:
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| Thank you very much Desalisa Family! |
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| Lots of thanks to Tadeo Family |
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| A Round Cake from Valeroso Family. Much, much thanks! |
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| This comes from the combined efforts of the youth. I especially thank the dedication on this cake! Hahahahahahaha! |
Aside from the cakes, there were also some generous hearts who showered the celebration with these:
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| This is Valdez Family's share. Thank you very much! |
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| From Valdez Family |
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| I think this also comes from the Valdez's |
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| The Regular giver of Shoimai. Thank you so much Daisy Te Family |
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| Betiong and Vergara Family's Buko Pandan. Maraming salamat sa dessert! |
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| The Youth |
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| Family Groups |
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| Mixed Groups |
And some like it trio:
And there is one who simply enjoys it solo:
There were people who were missed by my camera but were as important to this occasion. I am deeply grateful to them also. The camera of my heart caught you and never forgets you:-)
I also thank those people who were not in the celebration but made their presence thru their gifts. Kilala niyo na po kung sinu-sino kayo.
Too bad, my parents, brothers and other kin were not able to come because my mother got sick that afternoon. I also regret not having my two other children, Aiehn Deosjua and Aiah Dasha on my birthday celebration. The weather was to blame:-(
Nonetheless, it was an enjoyable evening. Looking forward to having another birthday celebration next year.
SORRY NGA PALA SA MAHABANG TITLE NG POST NA ITO. GUSTO KO LANG KASING HUMABA PA ANG BUHAY KO:-0
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